Just posting some new poetry.

Spent all night writing "Got Me Good/Shot Me Dead", it came from a deep dark place that I've yet to actually go.

No, I haven't experienced such heartbreak. It's somewhat inspired by JC Chasez's melodramatic new song "Until Yesterday".

"Almost Honest" was written about a week ago, but I didn't feel like posting it.

I like it, but it feels like territory that's already been covered.

"Room For Someone Else" was written just now over a period of 20 minutes.

It feels really natural and to the point, it came together while I was humming a melody to myself and the words just found their place.

Writing feels so good when it isn't forced and is able to feel itself out.

Finding the right words sometimes feels like a lifetime's worth of time and energy and at other times it's almost effortless.

 

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What have I been listening to lately?

 

 

I'm also listening to "Somewhere Only We Know" covered by Lifehouse which is originally by Keane.

I'm not a fan of Keane, but I love Lifehouse's cover of it, I have it on heavy rotation.

 

Some of my friends have been asking for my YouTube link, so here it is:

 

You live with your heart at a distance
You think your mind has all the answers
Clean out your mind
Set your heart right, make some room
Find some space in your heart for someone else
If your past is any sign of her future
You should be letting her in soon
Just to get back the place where you started
So you can watch her all over again

Take a risk, take a chance
Give it all you got if you don't want to lose it
Pull out all the stops
Hold on to her if you think you've got something good
Stop holding back
Gotta let go sometime
Just let it go, go with the flow
Bet you'll have some fun
Can't control everything
Hearts are too wild to tame, so just let them run wild

There is no end
You're right in the middle
Face to face with such a pretty little face
For a moment you can hardly breathe
Can hardly believe that she's here with you
Take your heart’s advice
Do what you gotta do to prove that you're the one
Take her in with the warmth of your word’s embrace and longing looks
She can't wait to fall in love with you
You can't wait to fall in love with her
This could be the beginning of something good

I'm like this because of you
Because I'm without you even when I'm with you
You're not giving me much to work with
I can't make something from nothing
I need a bit more to go on
A word, a look, a touch, a reason
Am I asking too much of you?

How like fate?
Inevitable yet surprising when it happens to you
If you play with fire you’ll get burned
Now that I’ve learned it’s far too late
Now I’m a mess of a man down here on the floor
Thanks for driving me here
Driving me to drink
Driving me to rethink everything I thought I knew about you

It hurts and part of me wishes I were dead
But I’m still here, living trying to exist without you
Look what you’ve done to me
Fell so fast, fell so hard
I have the scars to prove it
You went too far, you didn’t have to
Baby why did you go and do it?
What hurts the most is not that I’m dying here
What hurts is that you did this to me
Yeah, you got me good

Oh baby you got me good
You shot me down
You shot me dead
I didn’t live longer than that night
What hurts the most is the fact that you did it
Looked me straight in the eye and killed me point blank
Night after night with all your teary-eyed lies
Made me sad cus I saw the truth
When I saw me without you cus you were with him
Never knew your brand of love could be so damn sadistic
Chalk me up as another heartbroken statistic
Here I am another victim of fatal attraction
Yeah, you got me good

You threw me off
I can't stand to be beside someone that holds my heart at ransom
You may not mean it; you may not even know it
But you are killing me in more ways than you will ever know
You never told me exactly how you felt when it came to me
I tried to tell you how I felt
But you don't want my brand of love
You said you needed to concentrate
You want to feel like you are loved
I need to feel like I am wanted
My heartbeat is so out of sync with yours

I don't know what to say
Your silence rings so clear
Your voice sounds so far though you're near
So what difference does it make if you're right next to me or a million miles away?
You're still just as far, even when you're right next to me

These words are so strong because of the feelings that fuel them
I know that I can only be by myself for so long
I will always be myself, but I hope I will find someone else
Someone who won’t complicate simplicity
I am biting down on my lips
I will not lose myself in your tears
So take your tears out of my eyes
Because I don't need to feel like this

Why should I wait for you?
When waiting is all I ever do
I have a life that I should be living
I can't touch you when you're so distant
And my words can't seem to reach you from where I stand
So maybe I should just burn this map and find my own way
To leave you where you left me
I don't need to be here
I won't be misguided by words that aren't sure of what they truly mean
So let go of me, release me from your grip
I'm so gone
In hopes that I'll find solace on my own
Don't wait up for me
I'm done waiting for you

I’m in repair
Don’t have it all together
Won’t pretend like I do
I’m not well composed so I won’t act like I am
No acts, no lies, take me at face value
Although what I’m saying surpasses skin deep

Late nights lying awake
Wondering what will become of me
No giving up
Got to keep on getting up
Got to try to keep an open mind
Got to grow into my own skin
While I grow out of my old ways
I’m not the man I used to be lately
I could be wrong, but I might just be right
I’m everything and nothing like you remember
You might just be surprised at the person you see in these eyes

You can put together the image of me you think should be before you
But before you is no mirage
Just a man coming of age
Mirroring the age that he lives in
Constantly rebuilding from the chemical reactions
Caused by the warfare going on inside
Because of my inconsistent ever-changing beliefs

Can’t hold onto some things as long as I would’ve liked to
But I’ve got to let go sometimes
I’m scared of getting older
Because I’m still no good at being young
I’m too existential for my own good
Too bold to be shy in your eyes
But I am shy when I’m alone
Feeling like anybody but myself
So much of me is made up of so little
The little quirks that tie together the fabric of my mind
The clumsy words followed by clumsy actions
The deeply rooted worries and fears disguised in jokes

I don’t think I’ll ever be what I’m supposed to be when I’m supposed to be
But that’s okay with me
Once in awhile I feel like I’m alright
I’m not all together, but I’m sure I’m getting there
Wherever “there” is

A streak of light passes over my face
While the darkness stays dominant in the sky
Reflected images remain on the glass I lay my head against
A cool breeze creeping along my neck lulling me to sleep
The low, light humming of the engine carries me to sleep
Glimpses of the passing times come and go with my flashes of consciousness

Like heaven in a hurricane, the changes in the seasons remind me that everything changes
I’m not dead, just resting my restless mind
I’m not gone, I’m just changing
Let me stay as I am for however long this lasts
I’m not dead yet, I’m just dreaming
Dreaming of sunlight and the happiness that comes with it
I’m not sad, I’m actually quite glad
As I’m carried away by this rocket
To my destination

Wow, I haven't posted anything on my blod in almost 2 months!

I was swamped with projects and presentations throughout August and I was creatively constipated after finishing my course.

Honestly it took about 2 weeks for my creative juices to start flowing again.

But yeah, I'm back with more artwork, rants and yes poetry.

I also have more comic book updates, music reviews and Smallville info.

I will be posting stuff weekly again since I now have the time and energy to do so.

 

It's good to be back.